So yes… I’v been on therapy since forever (at least this is what it feels like) and I’ve never felt so gross before. At first I thought my psychiatrist was the best because he would never make me gain weight but I was totally wrong and I regret every step I took to get to his clinic.
He started with antidepressants and then moved to other medications that would make me feel better because I always felt so guilty so he gave me some FUCKING MEDICINE called SEROQUEL (please do not take this shit NEVER).
Ok, so I got 12 pounds (or kg whatever) after I started taking this. Not because it would provide weight gain but because all the control I worked so hard to develop I lost. I could eat all day. everything. I’m talking about the biggest binges ever.
And then I’d move to the laxatives or purge all that I could. For a while. Then it wasn’t even an option because I knew I’d end up fat anyways… So I don’t even purge anymore. All I’m trying to do is gain some control. lose some weight. Find my way back to ana. That’s ALL I ever wanted.
And if you guys can please please please give me some help I’d love to. Since I started with all of this you have all been my thinspirations. I love you all.
STAY STRONG. xxxx
I have never felt so sick before.
hereami-sendme asked: What was the cream called? Where could I get it, and how much is it?? :O ^-^ Thank you, doll!
Hey! So I have 3! Two of them are made in Brazil (where I do live).
This one is the most expensive one and it seems to work (really it does, in one week I got my “gap back”!) I don’t know about the price there, but here we pay in Reais (R$, so it is about 100. I believe it would cost less than 50 there, or not even that much)
But it surely has in the USA as well.
The second one is by Nivea and it is called “My Silhouette”, it is not that effective, but you can mix it with the one above and it provides great results :) It costs R$ 30!
And also, this other one here, it is greater than My Silhouette, and cheaper (R$ 12) but I don’t know if you can buy it if you don’t live in Brazil. Anyway, here it is:
You can also mix those three together and use it twice a day, in one week you will see the difference! :) Good luck!!
FOR THE ONE’S THAT ARE WONDERING, THESE ARE THE FAT REDUCERS I TOLD YOU GUYS ONCE. Xoxo, Stay strong. ♥!
CAN’T STAND IT ANYMORE! I’ve already been through tons of medications and none of them seem to work. I just don’t get it why it just get worst. I’ve been through at least 5 antidepressants, 4 sleeping pills, whatever it is for, it just seem to pull me down. Now I’m on Wellbutrin (Bupropiona), it’s antidepressant as well but my psychiatrist said it would stop me from binge eating… He already said it before… So if everyone has ever took WELLBUTRIN please let me know if it provides weight loss?
worst feeling ever. I will answer about the cream that “melts fat” in a while… just need to calm down girls. xx stay strong you all.
wishing I could die right now.